the feeling you get after studying 1 week straight and still get a C -___-
but at least i feel like i actually tried.
It really feels like I’m losing site of why I’m doing the things I am doing. I’m at the point where it just want to finish so I’m taking short cuts… but thats the thing. 2 years ago I told myself no short cuts because the long way is the not only the best way but is the only way. When i started over at a new school I was on my A game…reading every chapter, stacks of index card, hours of studying, and living at the library and now here I am 2 years later and doing short cuts like its the only way I know. I think the reason I feel incapable of doing a good job during clinical is because I’ve lost sight of why i’m doing this. I caught myself looking up jobs i can do with a BSN degree that does’t include being a traditional nurse. I came across a person in the same situation as me! reading the different jobs was interesting but what caught my attention was a comment someone wrote “why are you even a nursing major?” & it hit me … why am? I need major reevaluating (non pun intended) before i continue this term. and i’m serious because i don’t think i’m going to make it through unless I do this now!
Exploring Venice 💜 #extravaganza
San Francisco early 4 year anniversary 💜 💜 💜 @bryanwithawhyy #bk122010